28 July 2000 ... Why?
My synchronicity of the week has been people asking me "Why?"
You may have noticed all the computer problems I have encountered in the
last month or so. And last night, a friend asked me why I kept frustrating
myself over the old computer. I don't know. It has to do with stubbornness
and tenacity. Something along the lines of "I broke it, now I have to
fix it." Some things are outside of my realm and I am unable to fix them,
so I leave them alone. I know my limits. But, this computer, which I have
owned, coddled, and upgraded for more than three years? I Should be able
to fix it.
So I keep playing with it. Pushing it farther than I know it can go.
And, sure, I get disappointed when it doesn't go that far. But it's all
I've got right now. shrug.
The other day I had posted on a bulletin board to an old friend. I have been
a member of this forum for almost three years, not always active, but lurking
every single day. Another 'old-timer' of the board piped in: "Why do we
keep coming here?" She asked in a rhetorical way, but I have been mulling
it over ever since.
Maybe it has to do with friendship. The turnover at that site is a couple
of months, but every once in a while someone will come back. And I can be the
one who says "Welcome back," if I want to. Or maybe it's the fact that
I know there are people there, a bit like me, who would welcome
me back any time I felt like posting. Maybe I just want to keep an eye
on the people in "my" forum. Make sure they're playing fair.
Okay, that's enough why for today. Tomorrow I will tackle the meaning
of life and other fascinating 'why' questions.